Saying Goodbye to 2012

About this time last year, there arose many questions regarding what devilish creature possessed our little Emily. She had been a sweet, vivacious child who loved to laugh and play, but suddenly, should her mommy stray too far or she get tired or some invisible ailment strike her, she turned into a vicious, screaming banshee. We would all just stare at her in shock pondering how a little girl could be so “spoiled,” so “expressive,” or, could she really be that tired? Little did we know that what we were witnessing was a 19-month-old baby in pain without any way to communicate it with us other than screaming.

It would be another month or so of this behavior, of Chrissie unable to go anywhere without Emily, unable to set her down, with other symptoms slowly showing, before Emily would be diagnosed with Leukemia, with A.L.L. Throughout the first weeks of the New Year, Chrissie was exhausted. Sisters would frequent her house, helping with odd things so that she could focus on Emily or simply sit down as she was having to carry Emily for every household task; cooking, cleaning, folding laundry or, if she set her down to do a task, with Emily screaming on the floor. We all look back at that time with a feeling of guilt. How could we have not known? How could we have thought for even one moment that Emily was just acting like a little spoiled brat?

This year, as we prepare to say goodbye to 2012 and welcome 2013, we are thankful that God spoke to the doctors at the Emergency room February 9th. We are thankful that Chrissie continued to seek answers in spite of how tired and emotionally drained she was after two months of the above. We are thankful for the family and friends that have come forward, serving our family with time, money, meals, love and most importantly, prayer. We are thankful for the strangers who have reached out to help educate us on A.L.L and help us adjust to this new world that has become our norm. We are thankful for the nurses and doctors at the UC Davis Children’s Hospital who have helped keep us sane, provided blankets and pillows for the family members staying with Chrissie and Emily, for the entertainment they provide to our Little Stitch, for them opening in prayer before a procedure when we are too distracted to do so, and for them becoming a part of our ever-expanding family. God truly has blessed us this year.

For 2013, we enter the year with Emily on her Maintenance phase. A deceptive word as it makes you think there will be less chemo. With a spinal tap including intrathecal chemo, followed by intravenous chemo and a prophylactic antibiotic infusion once a month, a week of steroids each month, and a daily dose of chemo at home, Emily will have chemo every day for the next 2 years. Overall, she is doing well. Steroid Week is the family’s least favorite time of month, but Emily’s hair is growing back and the break from daily hospital trips is a welcome relief for the Love family.

As you settle in with your family to celebrate the coming of the New Year, please accept our humble gratitude for serving our family the way you have in 2012. God truly has done great things through you and we pray He leads you to even greater things in 2013!



3 responses to “Saying Goodbye to 2012

  1. God Bless all of you!

  2. What incredible pain and anguish you have all endured for so long. This precious little one fighting for her life every day. I cannot begin to imagine what you all have suffered. Today, my 96 year old Mother went to be with our precious Jesus. Our tears of losing her cannot compare to your tears of trying to save this little one. We stand with you in prayer and love during these difficult days ahead. May our Dear Lord Jesus comfort your hearts and embrace little Emily with His tender arms of mercy, grace and love.

    In Jesus name, amen.

  3. We are so sorry to hear about your Mother. It is never easy to go through that. We will be praying for you, too.

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